* lyn : )

♥ Saturday, June 30, 2007 ♥

10:36:00 PM

I went out with mum & dad to best to collect some stuffs.(i'm like a light bulb la. lols) then I was amazed by the huge number of crowd. The reason being.. TMR is the GST hike. So, seeing huge crowds is common cause I'm living in Singapore. Everyone was choosing things here & there and those cashier counters queues were like damn long la. Initially mum wanted to buy some stuffs cause there were some promo. But after seeing the queue, we just left our things and left the stores. And I saw fanye & lechiben at metro while i was shopping! and i saw anisa when i was heading down the escalator ((:

After that, we went to bi feng tang to have our dinner. It was erm, like so-so la. But we waited for damn long la. Then met up with my sister, so my sister and I went shopping. Bought Listerine & 2 freaking big tissue papers cause my dog keep using them la. TSK! and there goes my $14.50.

It was such a tiring day): & i realised i have yet to study for my skills theory.. oh shit):

♥ Friday, June 29, 2007 ♥

9:27:00 PM

我真的很累了。就算作出生命的改变，却从来没有看到什么改变。　不管做出再大的改变，事情还不是这样。有时真的很想独自的停留在自己的世界里，仔细的想下一步该做什么。在思考的时间过了以后，再打算我应该做什么。那些快乐的时光似乎早已消失了。　悲伤就好像是我以前的快乐。

我记忆里的童话已经慢慢的的融化，还不是这样

而你偷走我的时间，曾说过的誓言你还在乎吗

我不想孤单的走在回忆里撑强

只想这样吹着风　慢慢的把你遗忘。

phoned simin up in the morning to say good morning. oh wells, i miss my darling girl!

mayb with more initiative, things might have been a little better

because when i grew sick of trying

i might give you up

didnt u realise that our subject of talks seemed to have disappeared?

i dun not know what's wrong

i'm afraid of finding out

& i fear of losing you-

btw, wishing fanye a sweet 18=)
the official age to..
1. club
2. smoke
3. buy 4D
4. drive
5. watch m18
lols-.-!

♥ Thursday, June 28, 2007 ♥

9:43:00 PM

Papa, thanks for giving me such a supportive mum. She really brights up my day with what she had said. I shall be a good nurse! (: i wan to go overseas for higher edu if can..... but mum doesnt wants cause it's expensive):

2:29:00 PM

I'm in lecture class & yet I'm updating my blog. lol.
well well.
ytd's super budget meal with mich = fail
cause i eat like $5??
but today meal is better cause i onli had 1 chicken rice & 1 lemon tea
cost of today= $2.80
I'm so proud of myself (:

lessons are going to be ultra boring this sem
i seemed to b losing the momentum of studying

but one thing i'm sure.
I wouldnt be playing the sims at night
cause i wanna spend those times doing project & study
((:

♥ Wednesday, June 27, 2007 ♥

10:53:00 PM

I wouldn't be breaking down if I could.
I'd be hanging there till the last beat I'm having

& Papa, I'm waiting for your answer..

♥ Monday, June 25, 2007 ♥

4:31:00 PM

I seriously think i went to school for nothing
other than helping my frens to do their assignment & to submit my assignment
I wouldnt come sch if not for the assignment

I saw people who couldnt make it to the time
And all they could do was to let the lecturer walked past them?
now then i understood the meaning of punctuality.

& the point is that i came to school supposedly to study
and what ended was that i did their assignment for them.
how cool
shldnt have brought my psycho book

didnt manage to meet up my darling girl today
awww):
but i shall go find her someday when i'm free (:

no matter what others might think or say about you
but our jie mei relationship wont change de right?
wish u luck with that guy! love ya!!

on the way back home happen to see Ryan
& we took 72 back to Tampines.
i think he's a nice person(:

& i spent 11 bucks on grocery??
cause i went to shop n save
decided to buy nutrisoy for mum & me ((:
then i bought some canned food & snapple

after that went to buy lunch for mum & me
cant believe i'm so nice? lols.

my timetable for school sucks!
every tue ends class at 6pm):
and every alternate fri i get 5hours of break after a 2 hour lecture
WOW):
probably i date ppl out on tue & fri for dinner?? ((:

♥ Sunday, June 24, 2007 ♥

10:31:00 PM

e3s, see this link for the class bbq photos..
& i still need pics from pok quen & farhah to complete them

sch is starting tmr)):
will be going for just one hour of lesson
cool man
(sense the sarcasms??)

mayb i just go and submit my assignment
then i go off already??
HMMM

10:48:00 AM

yesterday was a hectic day for me! went out of house at 1230pm to go for my training at 2.then after that, bathed and took 88 to go pasir ris interchange. dumb me forgot that the first bus stop didn't have 88 and i sat there and missed 2 bus 72?? after i realised than i quickly took the next bus and change it to 88. lol.

meet chinhui & off we went to the class bbq.

how i missed those days! though not everyone was there... but i really missed those crazy times in class.. i'm so going to miss them during school terms):

photos will be uploaded when i have them((:

4e3 shall study hard for the upcoming semesters especially those in JC x)

♥ Saturday, June 23, 2007 ♥

12:09:00 AM

有时自己觉得很为难。。一方面要面对这个，另一方面又有另一个烦恼。我好烦。。有时真希望有一个能听我所有的烦恼就好！这样我那小小的脑袋就不必放那么多顾虑啦！半个我很想和他说说话。。仿佛像以前那样。可我讨厌自己没有那个勇气来和他说话。也许偶尔发他一些短讯问候他而已吧。。好希望他能主动一些。

今天和妹妹一起到marina square吃sakae sushi！应该肥了一些，明天又是新的一天。该积极的减肥啦！holiday花了不少钱，开课时得进行一些budget meals啦！Michelle 和我都参与了，谁要加入呢？hehe。我要省钱wor..

好想念baleno kingdom的成员。
想念那些lao jiao，老板，工作伙伴等。。说着说着。。真的很怀念那些日子。

♥ Thursday, June 21, 2007 ♥

12:45:00 PM

当我想到我家老大得去tampines打工时, 我就有mixed feelings.好希望他去的是他用来骗samantha和 ah boy 的...那也就是plaza sing..虽然plaza sing经常有老板下去, 但plaza sing拥有的好处实在比去tampines 打工来得好. 在加上他住west. 如果做morning shift的话, 一定要很早起床..我一定会经常去找他去吃饭^^

真想sb14的每一名成员能没有负担和顾虑,快快乐乐的活着每一天。。

祝福

♥ Wednesday, June 20, 2007 ♥

9:17:00 PM

it was a disappointment ; =\
but i supposed that, that was the best way out
since they want to bring back champion again

i think the ppl chosen in team are good

有时独自一人达车回家时, 不尽会回想那天所发生的事。虽然欺骗母亲说会在学校进行一些project是不对的，但是我不后悔和你去约会。那天不只让我开始认识你，那也是我第一次的dinner date.在那么多project, test, assignments 的压力下，我也算感受到了快乐。你仿佛就象是我生命里的转泪点。你让我体会到这个世界是那么的残忍，但也让我了解live life to the fullest的道理。事实是不能改变的，我想这一点你是比我还清楚的吧。

听了你那一小半的故事时，我终于明白我活在这16年里拥有着的东西也实在太多了。有时有想过是否我能够帮你。。我真的很想带给你幸福。。可是我是否能抛开我心里的constrains吗？或许你曾不了解我那些想法。

但我抱着的希望却是：也许我们能创造出一个奇迹？但我知道，没有你，连奇迹的开始也是不可能的。
你愿意牵着我让我们彼此带给对方幸福吗？

but i know; u will never come back here
let alone knowing how i feel.

♥ Tuesday, June 19, 2007 ♥

11:17:00 PM

I went out with 3 people and of that 3 I do not really know 2 ppl. cool eh. right. so i went to shop with chinhui & 2 of her colleagues. Then they are like superly LATE la. & while waiting for them we walked through bugis street for 2 times okie! & before waiting for them, we have already toured bugis once already. so it's like i walked there 3 times. oh gosh.

the amt i've spent in just one day...
1 astro boy top = $21.60
1 tank top + 1 cardigan = $23
smth frm watsons = $11.90
fried golden mushrm = $1 (shared with ch)
3 pairs of earrings = $5
1 necklance frm diva = $16
2 drinks at bugis street = $3.50
lunch + drinks = $4.80

wow.. that's like $86.80 and i still haven bought min's belated present cause i really wanted something unique for her & not something decided in a rush (:

it's like i see the 4 digits (before the dot) slowly becoming 3 digits? I NEED MONEY TO SPEND LA!!

is any of my girl friends free on 25th july?? it's a mon though.. pls date me okie! tag at my board.. i'll reply (:

♥ Monday, June 18, 2007 ♥

4:15:00 PM

Seriously I'M tired;-

I'M tired of keeping a relationship going
I think promises are shits
& Friendships are craps

I know I'm giving up slowly
goodbye everyone;-

♥ Sunday, June 17, 2007 ♥

12:18:00 PM

Yesterday's training was damn fun la. HAHA. Tiffany is strong cause she makes me have a tiny willy blue black?I think the last part of the training was the most fun one cause we had this training which is similar to the sumo wrestler?Then there was the "butt fight"?It was really funny la.Throughout the whole things with Tiffany I was like laughing till I cant see things properly?

I think the chances of getting into team is like minute? Cause there is seriously a lot of people who are so much better than me la.I know I shouldn't harbor too much thoughts in it.

IMSICK.

but through this, somehow I realised promises are shit?
you seemed to be a changed person after this short period of time.

♥ Saturday, June 16, 2007 ♥

12:06:00 PM

It just seems to me that friendship means totally nothing to you at all
insulting me through your blog seems something nice
but seriously I couldn't care less
since this is your decision
yes I shall respect that

But what's with pretending to be close with me all along?
Don't you feel like a pathetic creature now?
Don't you?

Yes, you have changed.
till I couldn't even understand what you have been doing
you are no longer the same person whom I knew initially.

♥ Friday, June 15, 2007 ♥

3:37:00 PM

i think i'm crazy cause i've just made myself a drink..
and that is hot chocolate + cereal
& now i think they are nice
oh shit

went K with my darling girls
though not everyone is there
but i guessed i just make do with it?

from BO- ver & me
from S&K- huiyu & yiping

somehow i missed wendi alot
cause of one of the songs which they sang?
i guessed cause she took great care of me??
THANKS BABY :D
i really miss her!!
goanna go MSQ find her soon

saw samantha , MK & ah boy too
and man, i miss MK just as much too!
& thanks for his songs :)

♥ Wednesday, June 13, 2007 ♥

10:11:00 PM

Match was so-so today. it was a draw.
9:9

the seniors are damn good man.

saw my eye-candy!!
oh my, she's like damn cute lahs!
=D

11:04:00 AM

having match later. & i dun have my lanyard with me ):
cfm not going sch on 25th june :D

a test i did..

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

*misses

♥ Tuesday, June 12, 2007 ♥

8:16:00 PM

i had the worst meal in my life man
eating junkies for the whole day

breakfast i had this zhu chang fen thing
and 1 bowl of nice chicken soup
then i proceed with eating butter cookies which i found at home

lunch was eating with my sista at kfc
(you can expect the normal stuffs)

dinner was mac + indian rojak
super unhealthy can?

OH MAN!! this shant be the life i'm leading!!

i went shopping with my sister today
and hell, i spent lots of money
a jacket, stationaries and some stuffs at watsons
that's like 40 bucks?!
HAHA

trip to dentist was alright la
not like some monster or smth
lol!

♥ Monday, June 11, 2007 ♥

4:37:00 PM

holidays are here
i just want to get enough sleep
seems like i haven been having a good sleep this weeks
) :

i know there's a lot of things which i haven do yet
such as do;;
written assignment for CT
study for Safety in HC & bio
prepare for practical test for bio and lab
theory test for lab
ICA for Safety
case study on FON
ICA for PSYCHO

i just feel lazy ~

initially wanted to go to the dentist
but my mum didnt tell me need to book appointment -.-
luckily i went there for hep B jabs
or else goanna waste my time man

the jab wasnt THAT painful
but it was the after effect
my muscles feel pain ) :
poor pain receptors

i just realised i found lots of blue blacks on me

♥ Sunday, June 10, 2007 ♥

2:08:00 PM

lovely nurses to be !

♥ Saturday, June 09, 2007 ♥

10:30:00 AM

men in white is a crap show
and it's super hilarious la : )

i have been thinking whether i should go for 4e3 gathering
somehow it's like everyone is going in their own grp
it seems to defeat the purpose of having a gathering

beach going .
they have been something which i used to looking fwd
but now.. i 'm not too sure about it
2 bad things cause all these

the problem of human being:
we always have the tendency of rmb bad things
and not the good ones
that's why sometimes we suffer

* * *

silence doesnt mean consent
and since you believe what u think is true
then just leave it hanging there
since whatever i've done/explain doesnt works

u might as well go in ur own way
three years; it's been three years
why cant u just give up on me
like what he did to me

♥ Friday, June 08, 2007 ♥

11:41:00 PM

welcome to the anatomy of our dude ! x)

what a human skull looks like

a snapshot of my handsome dude.. heh

another part of him .. with no left fingers

dude holding onto mich.. omg

fooling time !!

eileen's new bf ??!

part of my clicks

mich and feei chyin

MICH ! cute right.. hahas

ANISA & ME !

and lastly;

my moomoo's birthday !

♥ Thursday, June 07, 2007 ♥

9:48:00 PM

HAPPY 17th birthday to my MOO MOO !
we bought her SOCKS and a nike bottle
finally we can get ride of her STINKY FOOT !
& the bottle right was a GREEN one
which yeeleng, michelle and i have it too !

meet samantha today
AND she was late again !!!
thus i went to BO TM and do FREE LABOUR
-fold clothes !!
things i'm super good in in the past
but i think my skills lousy already
very long never do folding le..

will upload the photos of moo moo and me
& me with darling SAMANTHA !
<3 !

♥ Wednesday, June 06, 2007 ♥

11:05:00 PM

project and more project coming up
together with wonderful tests

oh well
wad a nice way to welcome poly students

first day of sch submit assignment
SHIT MAN !!
and must hand in b4 12pm !
i'm not going for classes
cause that day only have PSYCHO 1h

classes start at 10 tmr
and that's a cheer for joy !!

meeting samantha tmr as well !
double joy !!!!

najib and me in lab lessons
LOL!

♥ Tuesday, June 05, 2007 ♥

9:30:00 PM

i feel sick, dehydrate and tired
damn it !!

i must not feel sick at any time now
i must maintain healthy and good !!
and at the worst time to get sick too

i rather be sick during the holis
LOL -.-
sounds sick-in-the-mind
but hell, who cares la
i rather sacrifice my holiday
then be sick during term

with those important lessons
and there's so much things to catch up

hell, i think i must really start revising la
with that 206 bones in our body
and those bio terms

and not including those troublesome ICA
i think 24 hours a day aint enough
and my sleep time seems to reduce by alot nowadays
shit man !!

& my dear friend, pls return to SG soon !

♥ Sunday, June 03, 2007 ♥

1:27:00 PM

NO, i'm not escaping anything .
it's just that i think many parts of secondary sch life
i fail to find out many truths .

sometimes we let our friends mislead us
sometimes what we heard isnt true, yet we choose to believe
probably this is just the nature of me
you just cant change me ya ?
: )

i might have done 2 people wrong
i may have showed signs of biasedness towards them
but dun they have done something wrong initially?

no no, i dun wan to fight .
it's useless to fight
after all, everyone has grown up now

can we still know each other right from the start ?
i'll do what i should .

♥ Saturday, June 02, 2007 ♥

2:31:00 PM

my to do list is long

i cant wait for the holi to meet PWP girls
i'm waiting for e3 class gathering
i'm looking fwd to the nurses gathering

i want to watch blades of glory!!
and i'm waiting for the chinese ghost movie to come out

waiting to meet MK for sam's treat : )
and waiting for my sakae treat frm CH!

and i'm waiting to meet CHUA and SIMIN too! xD!
not forgetting my dear sista.. JONATHAN! : )

♥ Friday, June 01, 2007 ♥

8:47:00 PM

i am feeling damn disappointed .
pw was a total disaster
so much errors
so much things left out

& this pw make me realize:

i shldnt do things last minute and left it hanging there
whenever i do things MUST have a conclusion
i'm plainly dumb
i've plenty to learn

somehow it really make me think wad i really wan in my life
how am i going to strive for them

as usual,
i did not get a conclusion yet
but somehow i dunnoe why
tears flowed down

it was like..
when the results were pronounced
my heart skipped a beat

and when i laugh
it doesnt mean i'm okay
it's just a way to make me feel better

but i realize i wasnt any better
i laugh as usual, talk as usual
but i just feel that it's just so not me

damn upset
too much things had happened today

with 2 ppl missing in fb
with mic not going for lessons
damn it

today was just so not my day ) :

no one whom i want to talk to were there
they were just too busy with their own life now
work ones go work
one left my life long time ago, refusing to come back
another one physically wasn't here
and i'm missing him right now